i Don’t know why I am writing this, may be because it bothering me inside and I just want to take it out. 
 I know no one is perfect we all make mistakes. Every now and then we all make a mistake and do something we should not do. That doesn’t means you have to stuck in your past only or regret it  Instead you should learn from your mistakes and never repeat them again . 
I think i made a mistake in my studies, I should have selected some other course but I didn’t  and when I failed my college exams  after that also I repeated   Same mistake by taking same subjects. But not matter how much I studied my result was not good and I was not able to graduate while other my friends they are moving forward in their life, my classmates, friends  they had done so many things in their life and now they are supporting their family by earning and here me still not doing anything it breaks my heart it feels like I am stuck here and being able to come outside from this wrong choice which I made. 
 My friends, my sister, my family they all think I have no tension in my life or I am not thinking anything about my future but they don’t know that how much tensed I m from inside, I am not able to sleep at night because of this thinking that what I am going to do , when will I complete my studies , when I will support  my family? When I will able to buy things which I like by myself or when I am going to pay my owns bills? 
 

There are thousands of questions which keep moving around in my mind and I can’t do anything because still my college is not completed and I cannot apply for jobs, sometimes i think I should have also gone for university degree atleast ‘ Mai kch to mar Rahi hoti ‘ But……….

iTs not that ki I am not doing anything or not making any efforts its just that when I see my younger sister or my younger cousins that they are younger than me and they had done their college and now they are doing job, they are earning, paying their own bills, I feel so sorry for my self that I am still sitting and not doing anything. 
I was feeling so low from past 5-6 days so I thought i should write about it and here I have written everything about how I am feeling now days.

And I know I should not think about past, I should focus on my career and to things by which I can make my life smooth and my mind calm.

So whosoever out there thinks like this you are not alone I m here who has done mistakes and taken wrong decisoon in life and still not giving up. so you should also not.

keep trying