Can you sense it yet, the slow unfurling of life all around? 

The humor usually start to flow in after a crisis begins, in this case: THE CORONAVIRUS PANDEMIC. The social media was filled with gallows of stories and humor about the pandemic. The common ounce line that seems to have centered on the premise: SELF-QUARANTINE. This plays out like a sit-com or rom-com, if not then definitely a family drama. 

The novelty of Zoom calls from the study table and a 10 seconds commute to the table with a cup of strong chai in hand, pandemic was happening. 

Entrenched in pandemic life, each of us has dutifully donned our masks, avoided meeting people and limited out travel in our collective desire to flatten the curve.

The aroma of chai was a part of rhythm of the day, anchor in the routine that comfort me and gave me a sense of normality and predictability. 

As we settle in this new lifestyle of socially distanced world, a cup of hot chai brings me a momentarily escape of self-analysis and ways I could be anew. Slurping chai, waiting for my Zoom calls to take over the day; I think of the lessons and hard truths about life. A realization dawned upon me, the mistakes, habits and some beliefs that I needed change. Although, I didn't want to burdened myself with a long list of changes to tick off to prove that on-course to a better me. Instead the one ear taught me to make gentle promises to myself. Promises that will change the habits and will create more peace and hope within.

As my chai is getting over, I think about the strife and suffering. The lives of people who have suffered financially and those who had to bear the loss of their loved ones. 

What if 2020 was the metaphoric breakup with our past lives that we needed to get clarity on what we really want? What if the point of all this (upending change)  upending being polite way to describe that previous life" is to offer us to bend in the past we've, until now. 

It feels very similar to something someone once told me: question your direction of travel very few years, for we are seldom the same person for our entire lives. However adjusting the direction of travel may not involve any big deviations, but rather smaller imperceptible alterations. 

hahahahaha, all this with just a strong cup of chai.