At college, I especially at the final year and later on, I used to ask my best friend three questions:

How are you feeling? What are you feeling? Are you feeling anything?

It might sound silly or stupid but it does mean something. I asked him those three questions today. As usual, he would respond how or what he was feeling or if he was feeling something and in turn, ask me the same questions and I respond vaguely. 

My intention to ask him today was different and not really serious but his responses today was serious. Maybe not too serious to freak out as such but it was something genuine and I was also feeling the same.

Well this blog isn't about him or what he was feeling at that moment, but what I have been feeling in general. Mind is scattered, everything seems dull that I don't feel like doing anything. Even the classes don't seem exciting enough, or maybe I am not feeling excited enough. The things I usually enjoy doing doesn't seem to be fun. 

Everything is dull and boring. One reason is the pandemic, and another reason is probably is the rain. And as I have said earlier, I hate rain, especially when I had to go for class. It was raining heavily in the morning and I had to go for both driving and the other class; travelling by the bus and walking to the institute under the umbrella. I detest the rain and not the class but the class wasn't fun and exciting today, or I am not feeling excited about it. It feels so dull that you don't feel like doing anything. 

Well I am not feeling what I have been feeling so far while writing this but I am just saying but things doesn't seem that fun and exciting as it used to be. Maybe because of the pandemic, but even before that, it was no different especially after college. 

I really want a break from everything. I know things are going to get really difficult through the course of time especially with the pandemic and I am fine with that. But it's just something should happen to keep us going and it all seems monotonous at the moment and I don't want that to happen. Feels like the end; a dead end maybe.

But I cannot afford this being a dead end, as the End is Only the Beginning!