This is not a post about putting myself down and putting a negative light. Just stating some of my thoughts that may or may not make sense. So here goes.

I am not a good person. I thought I was when I was younger and that I was a victim of circumstances and that I don't deserve to face certain things even if those are the things meant to help us grow. 

I am not a good boy but a flawed human like every other individual. I embrace those flaws and accept them and don't intend to suppress them to fit in where I am not supposed to be. 

I am not a good boy who if getting slapped on one cheek would show the other. And that doesn't mean I would hit the one who slaps me. Or would I? Maybe in my head. That is all I could do. 

I am not a good boy who respects elders even if they are horrible human beings. I only respect those who think they deserve to get some. And that doesn't mean I don't respect at all. I respect their choices and decisions even if I don't like it and I expect the same from the other end as well. And I intend to lose my self-respect for anyone. 

I am not a good person who gets sympathy for good behaviour but nothing else for lack of skill because nobody likes them. And that doesn't mean I am a people-pleaser because I don't intend to be in anyone's good looks. If you like me, you like me and if you don't, you don't and that's alright. 

I am not a good person with a large heart for forgiving and forgetting no matter how badly they treated me. I forgive for my peace of mind but don't forget my self-esteem but don't take it to heart; again for my peace of mind.

These are all the thoughts or assumptions the opposite of what I had till I was twenty. But then I realised it is fine to not be a good person. You are not the only flawed person in the world. And that doesn't mean you are mean or cruel. Well, I try and be kind. I don't hurt anyone's feelings intentionally. And I don't intend to please anyone at all; except with my work and skills career-wise. 

No matter how much I say I want to be like a certain someone, I am Happy to Be ME. Because that is what makes ME. Maybe a little bit of alteration in skills and morals to grow but otherwise I think I am fine.

I Am Awesome! So are You All! 

That's all for now, thank you so much for reading.