In this blog I would like to talk about being a foreigner………of your personality! I know it sounds confusing but what I mean to say is when you suddenly notice how you have changed and you don't know if the change has made you better or worse………it scares you to the extent that you doubt if the change was sudden or slow and invisible that kept dragging you away from yourself!….you even wonder what made you change so drastically!!!
So let's sail to the topic through the poem!
I just talked a lot without a thought today!
And after that a long silence came to stay!
Making me scared and alone all together
As if in a foreign land with a bad weather!
Like am never used to talks or the eerily silence
As if I don't recall if I actually was like this once!
Have I changed so much that I can't recognise
Or is it just that with time I have become wise
A stranger I am to others as well as to self
Feeling like a commodity that is on the shelf
That prays that it isn't thrown as it expires!
Or am I becoming an icon who actually inspires!
Adventures initially I refused as I feared it!
But now am unable to as I wish to enjoy each bit!
The stumbling steps of my legs I can see!
I fear if I can always work like the busy bee!
Am scared if I have been left behind in the race!
Like a victim who has no advocate for the case!
I feel paralysed as I try to analyse and learn
The changes in me as I think makes my soul burn!
As each scar surfaces with a golden glow
Reminding how big and deep was each blow
It's like am running on a stupid treadmill
Moving nowhere, walking to increase the bill
As I lose no weight neither do I enjoy it!
Am desperately searching for a chair to sit!
The truth, the wounds, the scary scars unveil!
I really don't know what I actually feel!
So that's how I became a foreigner of myself
Shrinking and becoming delicate like an elf
I still wonder how I could become so cold yet naive!
I still try and move hoping am being brave!
We all recognise we have changed but to figure if it is right or wrong isn't easy…so let's give pur best and move on …no matter the change!
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