Good news good news that is all they want to hear 
but what about the pain that never went away
optimistic 
Pessimistic 
realistic 
sadistic 
so much going on in my life 
but still all they want is good news 
switch is blown up of my mental fuse 
my thoughts confused my words create dispute nobody likes me for sure dude 
I talk normally with them and they think I am rude nothing to be worried about just wait for good news
I have been waiting for the good news since I don't even know
it is not easy to say I am happy 
and stay like that
I want Hugs too
I want love too 
can I say I love you 
I want care
I want respect
I want happiness 
I want Joy 
I want to get out of this inescapable abyss
everybody I want someone who write me poem 
I want someone who text me first 
I want someone who cares for me 
they all say you will get somebody 
but why don't they become my somebody Somewhere in an alternate Universe I am happy 
somewhere in an alternate Universe I am in love 
somewhere in an alternate Universe I am not stressed 
somewhere in alternate Universe I am not a poet Am I a poet ?
I don't know 
Am i good person?
I don't know
I ask questions to myself I ask about myself to myself for myself
yes I am obsessed for my sadness 
Blood on my jeans 
not a saint and my talks are not even righteous lucid dreams 
unheard sreams 
write your name on my epitaph 
and after that your secret with me will be safe 
I wanted to sleep 
and now I am 
hello from the hell 
I got nothing to tell 
In her memories I Drown for everyone I am just a clown
nobody likes me in this town
I am no longer a king and get no Crown 
hey I will be there for you no one said 
got no one but for me it is a fair trade
Darkside
suicide 
in your heart I want a reside
I don't know if ever our feelings gonna collide
do you care about me 
do you even think about me 
I bet you don't 
because you cannot 
you are Heartless 
oh dam I am talking to myself now
Laugh  everyone laugh 
I lost
You won