Lockdown 2020 started on 25th March 2020 in India after outbreak of deadly corona virus. CBSE class 12th remaining exams were cancelled due to the lockdown. I remember I was the happiest at that time or maybe the last time in that year. 

There are thousands of yet unknown stories of teenagers, depressed or mentally stressed because of lockdown. Here I am sharing my story of lockdown 2020 and how it effected me . 

Rising number of deaths all over the world, no contact with loved ones, locked in between of fours walls. Sounds like a horror movie? Well we lived in this horror movie for over a year. I remember I tried being positive. I tried keeping up with my routine. I started working out to release some stress. I tried many new activities. It was the year I was supposed to start off with my college, like every teenager I had many plans for the future. But seeing all my dreams going down in drain got good out of me. 

The amount of toxicity around me was enough to mentally exhaust me. I don't blame them people for this . Everybody at that was dealing with their own problems. The only escape I had was social media. By the time my escape world also became a toxic world. As we know with good side social media also has a dark side. 

I remember crying every night myself to sleep. No matter how much I laughed in a day something inside me was broken and it was difficult for me to understand what was it. I saw pictures from last year of my school. Realising how happy kid I was made me even more sad. All I wanted was to relive those moments. Laugh like that again. 

Even after lockdown ended it was hard for me to get back on track . But that was the time I decided that I have to get myself together. First thing I did was removing all the toxicity around me that means removing all those people who were toxic. It's hard to end your relationships but it is important to end it if it's effecting your health. Then I tried doing everything I loved . And most importantly not caring about people who are not associated with you.

I am better but still not fully recovered. I am scared to go in thta phase again. I won't. I still miss that happy and excited kid I was. One day I'll be that girl again till then let's take it day by day and enjoy our life to fullest.

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