Once you fall in love, you actually never fall out of it. No matter how many years go by without you both meeting glances but you'll always remember the way their eyes would light up when they were happy or how they either talked too much or nothing at all on days that longed to feel the warmth of their broken heart.

And probably that is the reason, even after three winters have passed, my heart still remembers the warmth of your hand in mine the first time we met and fell in love. You were hurting but my insides were screaming at me too. It is always hard to find a new home and fill it with colours. You took away my grey and filled it with so much colours that the flowers in my garden were jealous of your sweet love too.

I had fallen in love before but I never knew a love like you. The first time we met, you very casually asked me to not fall in love with you and maybe, that is why and when I did, hopelessly. You had been hurt before and i had tasted sin too but with you, even the wrong felt right. You healed parts of me which I didn't know were left dried out of blood, like a home abandoned. I was always the one who'd talk more but you'd listen to my silence too with just the same amount of love and patience. and yet, I knew it in my bones that you never loved me.

Atleast, not the way I loved you and wanted to be loved. It was not your fault. You had warned me but maybe, it is true that when we are asked not to do something, we can't help but do exactly that. And so I did too. I fell in love with you, the way you'd giggle, laugh and smile. I fell in love with you, the way your eyes would dance when you'd be happy or the way you'd not meet eyes when sad, the way you'd not let me hold your stare but silently hold my hand. 

I fell in love with you, all your shades of white and black but I fell in love with your grey the most because it made me feel like it was okay to be a little grey too. I just hope one day, you'd meet my eyes and hold my stare too because I swear to God, that day, you'd fall in love with yourself too.