It goes without saying that we all seek to be loved back and I am one of those who wants to be loved back. So here is my story or you can say chapter of that story and there will be many more to come.

He as any guy you are in love with was charming, witty and had his ways to amaze me. I loved him so damn much it even hurts to say it out loud. I told him once that I loved him but he said he doesn't know what to do with it (p.s. he was going through something at that time I will tell you some other time)

I wanted him to know how much I was in aww with him. Even when he hurts me I found a way to neglect that, even when hurting was more than the happy memories. I wanted to ask him why can't he love me back, why can't he see me the way I see him. I didn't wanted to become someone who put up with guys bullshit who treats u like crap, I knew my worth and yet I was so outwit by this creature that I found no way out. Even when I wanted so bad to get out of that situation I kept getting sucked back in.

Trust me when I say I tried to stay away but anytime he was close those feelings just emerge back to surface no matter how hard I wanted to bury them in. It didn't matter in that moment that he hurt me with his words or he doesn't love me back, all that mattered was he was there with me in that moment and I never wanted that moment to end.

So I wanted to ask myself is it really love or my fucked way of loving someone. Is it selfish to want to be loved the way you adore them. Why don't we say it in the moment how we feel, why is it so hard to tell that you wanna be with them and have them say it back. My selfish love is giving me pain that that I don't know what to do with it because I don't wanna walk away I wanna stay but I want him to want that too. It it selfish to ask that?

I am just a girl want to be loved back it isn't to much to ask for…