I wrote this piece of poetry, couple of months ago.
Hope you love reading it, as much as I do!
Would you remember me tonight?
Like every winter night,
freezing your heart, with my warm hands
and my drenched collection of your memories.
Would you remember me tonight?
Like my sobbing eyes on your empty notes,
Making more of something, I know, would never exist!
Would you remember me tonight?
Like our cold conversations every time.
Like our last goodbyes,
fleeing back to our godowns, like we've never met before,
but more of those strangers we have had stories in our heart about, every passing day!
Would you remember me tonight?
Like you had my eyes, on that raining lane,
tearing my own skin to fix your broken yearning!
A red rose, that you never carried for, leaving it somewhere, unwanted!
Would you remember me tonight?
Like my tears on your revengeful sight,
Just an autumn leaf, dying to live,
unlike those fallen leaves drying on the streets!
After all these years, that I thought this is my "one true love" , should I give it a thought, just in case!
"Inquisitive" - well yes I am! The more I keep it to myself, the more it feels numb.
All these poetries I keep telling myself, feels nothing but painful! I know it's never easy to understand someone truly, how exactly it feels, specifically the emotions someone exhales, solely for you to light up the candle, made of hope! That one true hope, it really matters unlike everything, everyday.
But what about someone, you know isn't even bothered, to acknowledge until the regrets grasping him strongly knowing the unlikely and overwhelming hate for yourself, so he perceived that questioning authenticity would be a great relief for himself. So he says,"why you even felt that way?"
Fading away won't be so painful, if you know you're in peace. Things happen, people change and so do their feelings. What if you never felt loved? You were delusional, thought it's there, just inside your head, but till the end, that you finally understood, that you fell, right from the top, shamelessly making this imperfect belief, to look so perfect, so impactful that it's hardly possible to rub that impression away from your heart! A trap, entangled in a way that you're bound to suffer until you know you are breathing heavily, looking for a way out but suffocating to live! That's probably what people call, "a toxic relationship"… well, I know. But the feeling was and will always be so strong that irrespective of how hardly I fell, breaking my bones, so I can never stand up… I will still be in love, I will still put everyone above me and I will continue to linger realising, this is how I was supposed to be, this is where I belong! Though I hope, I will get my closure someday and I will say,
I have learnt to seek, solace in my aloneness…
Thanks for reading :)!
