What does it truly mean to love another? I've been thinking about it for quite some time. And for the most of my life, I thought I knew what it meant to truly love someone.I thought it meant caring for a person and wanting to spend your eternity with them.It meant getting butterflies in your stomach whenever you see them. It isn’t just driven by desire, there are emotions involved. It can be sexual but it doesn’t necessarily have to be.  But then, I fell in love. And suddenly, I though loving someone is not just caring about them, its cherishing them. You get happy when you see them smile. Just holding hands with them makes you feel complete. Staying with them makes you feel safe. And the most beautiful thing about loving someone is that you simply love the little things that they hate about themselves, and somehow you start loving the things that you hate about yourself.

     And just as I thought I knew what loving means, I had to let go of that one thing that I loved more than anything, my love. Love is simple, yet complicated enough to make your whole world crumble into dust. And the pain and loneliness taught me that loving meant letting go even if you feel selfish enough to hold them back. Love is being selfless enough to get your heart broken into tiny little pieces. 

    Love is a deep and beautiful feeling. However,it means slightly different for each person. For me, it was letting him go so that he could find his happiness even if it meant there was no hope of being happy ever again. Days turned to months and there was no light to be seen. It was like being stuck in some kind of labrynth from which there was no escape. All the time that spend thinking..contemplating on how i should spend the rest of my life, taught me that to be able to escape from this darkness I have to start loving myself. So, i told myself that I wont give up on myself like I did on my love. I wont lose faith on myself. And I started working on myself, one step at a time, getting ready to live my life to its fullest. So that one day when happiness comes looking for me, I'll be able to embrace it completely.