The past is the memory and the future is the dream. Our past consists of various types of memories: good, bad and ugly. Even if we don't recall them, they are still there because memories never die. Some are stored tangibly in the form of journals or pictures or archives and so on just in case to be on the safe side.

We have come a long way and it is those hardships and opportunities that made us what we are. And if they are erased, that isn't us. Because all the bad experiences have taught us or made us what we are and through them we grew and evolved into the person we have become. All that is fine. But it doesn't work for everyone I suppose. 

And many of them don't recall it that often as it feels older than history which is great. In my case, I remember even the slightest memory vividly and I am good at remembering dates. (Anything after 2016, I remember.)

I can tell what happened on so and so date; even the slightest thing. For instance, the first time I took a selfie with a celebrity was on 19th October 2019; or the last time I met my best friend before the pandemic was on 29th February 2020; or the day my sister got a nickname because of a folder on the PC was on 5th November 2017; or the second time I met the celebrity with whom I took a selfie with was on 17th August 2022. Well, I can go on and on but I will stop for now. 

I don't think of all the happenings and events in the last six years as I used because I am far from home and it all feels like it happened ages ago and that is great. But sometimes there are moments that comes up unnecessarily, it is a thought and not a feeling but suddenly out of nowehere coming doesn't make sense and I wish I could erase that aspect or factor of memory. 

Even if those experiences made us what we are, it is just bothering at times and I wish to bury it so deeper that I don't remember the faces, the names, the events involved by the faces and so on. 

Just like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, which released 19 years ago on this day. Even if the movie ends on a happy open note, the initial drafts suggests that Joel and Clementine (played by Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet respectively) have been doing the procedure continuosly even at the old age and then get back to each other. That is too much!

Anyways, that's all for now. Thank you so much for reading. I will see you in the next one. Happy Sunday!