‘What are your plans for New Year?’ my manager asked.

‘Nothing really. Excited for a New Year?’ was my response.

‘It’s just like any other day. Nothing special,' is what my manager said.

Am I feeling the same as my manager does. Well, I don't know. All I know is I am just tired and the days are short and time is ticking and I am not as tensed as I was few weeks ago but there are some worries. But life is hard and it is only going to get harder. I just need the strength and courage to deal with it. Sure, there would be troubles and miseries but at least there should be something to calm you for a while or relieve your stress. 

For example, during the last stressful year of college, my friend and I used to go to the cinemas a lot and that made us feel better and relaxed amid all the stress and worry. 

But currently, no trips or outings are able to compensate for the distress and worry that I have been undergoing. I know it will pass and I know it isn't my fault. I just need the strength and courage to deal with it which I don't have at the moment. Everybody has problems, every place has its own problems, you will obviously face challenges at study or workplace be it the kind of people you deal or the kind of tasks you have to deal with. It is going to get harder. If you had a family, how are you going to deal with it? You have to get on your feet ASAP.

I am tired. Of what, working? Life sometimes. It feels depressing sometimes. You don't want to do stuff sometimes. But you have got a lot to do. There isn't anyone you can tell how you are feeling because you don't trust their judgment or them as a person. 

I've had enough of being picked on. Not the way, I used to while in school, but sometimes I feel isolated and I have stopped caring for approval or acknowledgment and does that make me arrogant? I don't care anymore. We can't expect people to behave the way we want. Well, I expect them to be polite whether they like me or not, and not make my life miserable. 

I was very satisfied when 2023 was about to begin because 2022 was a great year and now it doesn't seem the same. It's not exciting; it doesn't have to be. But it's been really depressing. Nothing seems to cheer up at the moment. The weather makes it depressing, the festive vibes in the markets and the city centre doesn't seem to lighten my mood or sitting at a corner and sipping a cappuccino or a hot chocolate doesn't always help, maybe checking people out does. 

Maybe, I am tired and I want to sleep. I am hitting the bed after this. Also have a lot of work before the year end. Especially writing the resolutions and flushing out unwanted stuff from your life, which is gone already but you need to make absolutely sure.

That's Life!