What is it that you strive for? What is your ultimate goal in life? What are your ambitions? What is your dream?

All of the above-mentioned questions have got nothing to do with what I am expressing in these blog posts. All the thoughts I share have been with me for a long time and it only hits me hard much later i.e., the sense of realisation and when that happens, I write about it. So this is one such blog post like any other blog post. 

Like everyone, I too have a goal, to be happy, to fulfill my goals, and so on. But lately, there has been a goal that I realised I would also like to have and that is; remembering myself. Or should I say, acknowledging my existence which I think I have achieved since school? 

Well, I wasn't a popular guy at school or at college, and I still am not. I prefer being low-key in my presence but at the same time I want to contribute even in the smallest way possible and I want to be remembered for that so that when I achieve the bigger goals, people at that stage of life will notice it and acknowledge it. 

I don't know if it is a selfish thing of wanting to be known all over. It is not about being famous and this has got nothing to do with people-pleasing which I have abandoned since I was twenty. I only wish to please others with my work and not necessarily join a gang as I am not that desperate in fitting somewhere. I don't want to do things because everyone is doing them. I want to do it if I want to do it.  

Even if I was the “silent valley” in a group of at an institute, I somehow make my presence visible which sometimes works for the right or the wrong reasons. But now, I am making an effort in making my presence as strongly visible as possible even if I am confined or subdued at times and I am happy with that. 

This has also happened in the previous stages of my life. Maybe the ones who are currently there wouldn't remember me, but the ones who had been with me will remember me, remember my existence through my skills or something I present and I like that. Even if I am there for a short period of time, I want to be remembered. I want them to know who I really am and that I don't just exist, but also live. In my own way and my own sensibilities. Period!