Hello… I hope you are redy to hear me rant…

I am an 18 year old kid and I have always liked the idea of getting certificates and trophies but I have never really won any competition as an individual contestant. I am mentioning individual contestant because I have sometimes won when I participate as a group with my friends. 

When I was much younger, I eagerly participate in many competitions hoping to hear my name announced as the winner but I always get disappointed at the end leaving with just an participation certificate. I always try to get my chin up thinking that any day I might win an competition but that day has never come yet. I always think that hardwork alone doesn't guarantee an win, luck too is needed to be successful. I guess I didn't have either one of them all the time.

 Though I always fail, I always try again and again but I receive only disappointment at the end so seeing that I always get sad hearing about the results, My mom insisted on me not participating in any competitions in the upcoming days, So that I will not get sad about the results. I always saw that as a better idea ever since and always just be that audience member who cheers for the winners of an competition.

The funny thing is that even though I don't participate in a competition, I still get hopeful in hearing my name being announced for the winner's spot. Now that I am writing about it, That sound very weird… I will not judge you if you feel that way too about me…

I guess I always saw competitions as an step in a ladder that assures me that I am successful but we all have heard stories about many leaders who were discouraged and didn't really win competitions in their young aga. Maybe hopefully, I am one one tham who might do something big when I get older…

I hope there will be a day when my parents are than proud to tell the world that I am their daughter. I don't know when that day will arrive… Hopefully very soon…

That day, I will be very proud of myself and also understand that I too am capable of doing something big…

Life is very unpredictable so we can never strongly say on what we will encounter in the future… All we can do is be hopeful and try to be atleast a little confident that any one day will be our day in which we will shine…

With that I will end my first blog…

Byeeee…