I wish I was included in your priorities list.
I wish I could complete your fantasies.
I wish I didn't put double the effort with your minimal effort.
I wish I could be or act like a Hard to get one girl.
I wish I could set my standards higher from the start.
I wish I could clearly ask you what you feel about me.
I wish I don't start over giving just like that for ones who just made me feel special for a day or two.
I wish I don't over love.
I wish I don't melt away with one sweet text of yours.
I wish I could just stop waiting for your text.
I wish you could talk to me like before.
I wish you miss me as I missed you every day.
Why? why? why am I always taken for granted... It hurts so much when taken for granted. Why do I overlove people and in the end it's just me hurting? I want to be loved and taken care of too. Is it too much to crave for normal kind of love where you take some time for each other no matter how busy you are, talk about each other's day, surprise the other with little things, support each other, balance out each other, to understand each other like best friends? Can I know what you feel about me or are we just gonna be uncertain till the end. Uncertainty drives me crazy, It really does great things to an overthinker like me. I don't really understand what to do with this uncertainty. I want to cherish you forever be with you. I feel so peaceful when I am with you, I feel at home in your arms. I don't know if I made you feel that way or not.
How strange it is the guy I didn't have any feeling for, calls me and tells me that he misses me, cares for me, trying to cheer me up but the guy I love doesn't even call me now. Human life is so unfair or we make it that way.
But that's it I am not gonna waste anytime on anyone, I am going to concentrate on myself of people want me they will make their way into my life naturally, I don't wanna force anything anymore. I have never been selfish but now I really wanna be for myself. I want to do things for myself and I will.
--Krishnapriya
