my basic nature is really helpful like I don't know why I cant see anyone struggling at all . I felt really good about it like the way I was built to react to be there for others . I just loved that version of me a lot . 

when I was young this helpful behavior included helping a beggar near temple everyday I went to classes , helping my friends , sharing my toys . I was so proud of my self . I am giving person and I had a mindset that everyone is like that you know at least everyone in my family was like that so I assumed whole world is the same. 

Little did I know I'm yet to see the world and meet new people who aren't actually like that. I was so pure and kind hearted . But then I entered  secondary standard and I started observing children around me . they didn't appear to me that nice ." you just cant give up on kind world yet maybe some people are like that something bad must have happened to them" I thought to myself . I just kept defending selfish and mean kids around me in my head and even teaching them “please be kind don't fight etc.  ” I still had kind world hope left in me 

one day I was leaving school and a group of boys looked at me and started laughing I thought something funny must have happened, they were  my classmates so I went to them and asked what was it about? they made faces at me and said “ look at this ugly girl , she's dirt ".  it took me a second to understand and realize I was being bullied and that also by my classmates whom I helped all along no matter what and shared my stuff . like what??? I didn't speak a word and left . i didn't know how to react I never expected this even in my childlike imagination . i went home and cried so much . this was my first encounter of bad mean people in my life . 

NO, this incident didn't take my hope from kind world its okay . but it did make me realize at that age that our life isn't a fairy tale with magic . its a tale with so much bad and little good yet you have to keep faith in happy ending . so being good to others even  to bad people isn't actually that bad because you wont let yourself down . Still it did change me a lot….:)