Dear god,

           Everyone says that u have the answer of everything … right? Please help me to believe that I have some questions and they have been coming up in my head for a quiet sometime.

But first you should know I am someone who understands that life isn’t easy and it’s a long journey to find happiness and accept whatever comes your way

Most of the time I feel alone like in front of so many people and having a big family I still feel like I’m alone in this world. I am definitely not talking about having a partner or better half here ... it has never been my priority also what’s the point of having one if I still feel alone.

I feel I am never understood my feelings are not important or mostly suppressed and justified to be extreme huh... and I have become very much used to this cycle and I don’t expect it to change, now I don’t even react and it hurts a little less as each day passes by.

What I wanted to ask is, will there ever be a time where someone will understand me without even me explaining it or without even me expecting it. will there ever be year I will feel loved, will there ever be a day my feelings will be kept in consideration, will there be an hour I won’t feel alone, will there ever be a minute my thoughts will be important to someone or a second where my happiness will matter???

Will those things ever happen or it’s just a fake assurance to go through rough times? Should I prepare for the worst and get extremely overwhelmed when I receive 1% of what I deserve.

What what..

Okay I’m writing this and something unimaginable happens.

While writing this blog I suddenly heard this song on my sister’s phone and all my attention got diverted there. Que sera sera...it was exactly when I was typing “will those things ever happen god” 

I have never heard this song before in my entire life and song goes like..

 Que sera sera!! whatever will be will be .... the futures not ours to see, que sera sera

song by Doris day 

still might be a coincidence but how is that possible even if you don’t believe in god this was just beyond my understanding. Okay I am still so surprised processing whatever happened just now I don’t want to be a superstitious person so ill just not elaborate on all this.

But I have received my answers before never this early but through mom or some friend or some surroundings eventually I get my answers whenever I ask questions to god or universe call it whatever you want ..and I am just accepting it I got my answer thankyou universe !!!!

By meaning of the song I figured the answer I guess  

Live in the present tackle each day ...hope for better future and work towards it. try to find happiness within if you can understand yourself don’t care about the others misunderstanding you and be grateful for even the smallest happiness and gestures.