Motherhood is the most beautiful phase of life. Yes indeed it is. I m so grateful to the Almighty that I am blessed with the most beautiful and handsome boy whom I love to death. He is more than everything that I could have asked for. But everybody talks about the roses which looks beautiful in a bouquet but nobody told you anything about the thorns that are present in there as well….

My experience was also something like that. As a first time mother I was also nervous and excited at the same time. My preganancy was also a roller coaster ride like many other beautiful mothers out there. But I loved every bit of it. The thing which I was not ready for at all was PPD (postpartum depression). During pregnancy of course I tried to educate myself as much as possible and may be I have read something about it as well but never thought that I could experience something like that. After having my baby in my arms for the first time, I felt absolute joy. But few days after that my hormones kicked in (which of course I didn't knew about it that time) and I had such an overwhelming feeling. I was not able to latch my baby properly so I felt like I m not a good mother. The irregular sleep schedule made me feel irritated. I had all the help I needed around me but still I used to feel alone and sad. I was so scared of my feeling that I used to thought how can I be so selfish and can have such feelings? How can a mother have such feelings? What will my family think of me? Am I a terrible mother for having such feelings? 

I m blessed to have a very understanding husband and a family but still I was not able to share this feeling with anyone not even with my mother. I bear all this feeling alone because I was scared. I was scared of my own feelings and the judgements of the society. But then I decided to take action in my own hands and I tried to educate myself about it as much as possible. I started chanelling my thinking to develop positive thoughts and tried to focus on that only. I started reading books and novels which is my favorite hobby. With time by the grace of the Almighty I came out of it. But thinking of this experience still give me chills. 

Yes it was a phase. It will pass with time. But people need to stop stereotyping mothers as a selfless being. They are also human being, they have feelings as well. People need to acknowledge that and should stop taking them for granted. With every baby that is born, a new mother is also born. Stop shaming them by saying you are looking stressed. Instead tell them you are doing great. Instead of saying you have put on weight, try to say you look beautiful. PPD is real. If you see a mother being irritated or breakdown even on a slightest things talk to them. 

I just want to say to all the beautiful mothers out there “You are beautiful and you are doing great”.

See you soon ❤