Hello. This blog is a fictionally kind of story that I just wanted to jot down as a blog. Please do bare with me and read ahead!

'This blog is being written at such a time where I kind of feel lost and I am kind of being reminded that I am being forgotten.

I have never felt so not myself in such a long time. Somewhere I just lost my soul to someone I shouldn't have trusted. To someone I loved the most. That one I wanted to have in my life forever, FOREVER!

I feel so frustrated and cheated that I never in my whole life thought this man, my man- well, that's what I thought he would be of mine- would never leave me. Little did I ever realize that he was falling in love with another person. 

Here's what happened between us.

After being in a married relationship of 5 years, never even once did it cross my mind that he would have change of plans about our relation.

For 6 years, I have been with him through rough and hard times. We met during the beginning my 2nd year at a bus station. Later I realized he was our new lecturer that too my class. He was just 24 at that time.  

Meeting him everyday at the bus station grew us closer day by day. Sooner falling in love. By the end of third year , my parents already had plans to get me married so with no hesitation , I told them about him.

2 weeks later, our families met and our wedding was fixed for a month later. Everything was bliss after the wedding. We moved to our space and began living our lives of happily being married.

Year by year , I did notice a bit of distance began to grow, which I only thought he wanted his own space, because of the hectic schedule. He was no longer just a lecturer at a college. He gave online tuitions and classes too.

But after our 5th year anniversary, a month later, I never felt being loved and began feeling so lonely. He slept on the sofa in the living hall and wanted to avoid me. But it just happened out of the blue, when he forgot his phone on the table and I noticed a message that I shouldn't have read.

It said ‘Can’t wait to be with you this Saturday. I''ll be waiting!' What shocked me more was this was from my bestfriend. ‘Guy bestfriend’.

He was gay.