Hi friends..

          Long time no see. I hope you all fine and healthy. I am a blogger before two years but I am not able to write anything these two years because of my personal problems.

         Today I suddenly thought of candle monk and want to write after longtime to share my thoughts to ease my mental health.

        I have a happy marriage despite the toxic relationship with my in- laws. I am trying to get pregnant and expecting our first child. After trying for three years finally get pregnant, we are so happy head over heels for our little one.

   That happiness not last long.I had so many pressure from my in-laws and i am so stressed out. I thought it will not affect my baby. Because the scan results and blood pressure are normal during hospital visits. But then I don't know the tragedy just waiting for me bring me down.

        During seven months of my pregnancy I had miscarriage the report says it because  of  stress. Because of this i am like a mentally disturbed person for two months. Also I think I would end my life but whenever I thinking like that my husbands  face will come infront of me. If I did , who is there for him already our boy baby is gone that gives him so much pain. That's what the reason I am still alive.

       I and my husband are so depressed and feel like our life is upside down in all aspects. We didn't go anywhere and  he is not done anything and didn't speak to anybody.

      After three months we started realising that he is no more and  he is not coming to us whatever.. then only we understood the  reality. After we are going to temples, churches and many spiritual places to pray wherever he is make sure he is safe in heaven.

       Literally I am crying while writing this blog because I missed him so much. We Love him so vey much  wherever he is.. after all he is our first baby.

    Now I am realised that God has better plans for us, so don't stick in past and move forward to present and then future then we see our baby comes again to us.

     So whatever problems come into your life,  don't worry nothing will happen without a strong reason behind it. So hope our lives become bright and shine in future…