How much time did you all spend doing nothing but just lying on the bed and thinking about the things you planned yesterday you will do today but your body and soul are against your plans and not allowing you to get up and be productive? Yeah, I spent almost every day with the feeling of nothingness. It makes my thoughts so vague that it feels like the whole energy has been downed out of me and I'm left with nothing but weakness. Dizziness is the constant state of mine and my heavy head full of thoughts, regrets, and insecurities won't permit me to fight the battle. Yeah, I know it happens as the pandemic made the situation so dreadful that being in nothingness is common, maybe.
Likes and dislikes are not something I can focus on these days. Running away from my hardships is what I'm good at. Knowing the fact that all this will not help me grow but only fall me apart, still, nothingness is being obstinate in me. Well, I know it will not help me grow, but the attempt is all I can give to myself. An attempt to grow and start facing what I feel instead of running away and encouraging myself to be productive.
People might facing the same problem but, let's face it all. Being in this bubble will only lead us to darkness but, someday we all have to come out of this bubble and live with the acceptance. Self love is important but acceptance is basic. If I'm vague and I have insecurities then let's be brave enough to prioritize our thoughts and work on them. I took a step by being out spoken about my thoughts and here I'm writing and giving a start to myself. I hope my efforts will help me in taking me out from that bubble. It was tough to take the step but I guess this is what a life all about, moving up after drowning.
I hope my words will help you in some way and you can gather courage to move against your bubble and start something. Something which heals your mind as well as soul, which detox your negative thoughts and fill you with positivity, which not only lead you to the path of self love but acceptance too, something which polish off all your feeling of nothingness and leave a mark of sane mind with beautiful thoughts.
