Priya

I felt butterflies in my stomach while settling down to my new seat offered by my ex-classmate. After placing my bag at the back of my bench, I started looking around myself and finally for the first time notice the whole architecture of the class, this class is little bit more spacious than my previous class, there is also a digital display screen for digital teaching method along with a regular blackboard and just top of my head there is the projector of that screen, funny thing is that after looking at that projector I thought about how it will gonna fall on me someday …. (kindly ignore my weird thoughts).After looking around for a while I realized that the number of boys are more in the class, only the middle column rows are filled with girls otherwise on the both left and right column rows are filled with boys. There are only few people whom I can recognize by face but none of them are seems approachable so I made up my mind that I am gonna become fun kind of person this year so that people don't hesitate talking to me, Also I believe for the starters I have got an amazing chance to become friend with aisha(ex-classmate) and divya by sharing the same bench.

First bell for the first period rang and a woman in his forties with chubby figure wearing light blue color saree with circular optical glasses appear and introduced herself as Rita Bhattnagar. She said that she will gonna be the English teacher as well as the classroom teacher for this year. No serious kind of study happened today, only introduction of books which we will covering this year along with the syllabus discussed. Similarly like this other periods are also went in the discussion of the syllabus of respective subject. We get Prabhakar sir for Math, Ajay sir for Physics and Roshini mam for Chemistry. Finally recess bell rang and students start going out for canteen or for ground while some students start opening their lunch box for the lunch… I hesitatingly asked Aisha whether is she and divya are interested in having lunch with me but the response I get made me confused … she replied by saying are you not gonna take us canteen today with you, we know that you are a regular going person to the canteen. I will not lie I did feel odd that time but in the desperation of making new friends I didn't give much thought on her words. So obviously with a smile I replied her If that what you both want then why not lets go…After reaching the canteen also, they both showed no interest in buying anything by themselves, so I took the initiative and started giving order for my food item to the canteen worker when I just about to leave the ordering queue, aisha and divya stop me for leaving and with a buttering tone asked me to buy their food items, since It is the first time they were asking for something so I just nodded my head and give their respective order to the canteen worker but the awkward feeling in my stomach keep growing which starts making me feel uneasy. In the entire recess break I noticed that aisha and divya are only indulge with each other, I am not the part of their conversation but I still patiently kept my smiling face on. We all returned to our class and get settle down for the remaining classes but now my focused has completed shifted from the upcoming teachers to the activity going on between the aisha and divya. So for the last two periods of today I had no idea which teacher came for which subject. By the end of the school my weird awkward feeling have grown to its fullest form so I decided I will not gonna try making any friend from now on, I realized that no one really wants to be my friend, everyone has their own selfish motive. I was wrong about aisha she doesn't want me as her friend she just needed me as her personal bank. I was so stupid for thinking that the girl who never talked to me before in 6 years now wants to be friend. So when the school ending bell rang and aisha asked me to go home together since our half route is same I refused immediately and walked out from the class with my bag. I directly went to the cycle stand in such a hurry that I stopped noticing anyone around me, then I unchained my cycle and start paddling for going home. The same route which was looking cleaner , greener and sweet to me in the morning is now looking like a deserted place. For the entire route I just kept noticing the terrible things around me like just after cycling 200 meters I saw a dead puppy on the road side I immediately stopped my cycle and said my prayers for that puppy, I prayed for his soul and wished for her next good life. and then again continued my cycling and decided to fixed my eyes on the straight road so that I won't encounter any misfortune but still my misfortune didn't leave my side, at the crossing of mall road I almost got hit by a car, but somehow managed to balance my cycle and didn't get any injury. Even if I did get any injury I don't think I noticed … somehow finally I reached my home and directly went inside my bedroom. When my maa called me for evening snacks I replied by saying I have a headache let me just sleep. But in reality sleep was totally gone from my eyes, there were only tears left now. I don't know for how long I cried while complaining to god for making my life so horrible , for making me so unlovable ,for making me BROKEN… I cried I complained again and again for so long that my eyes and body give up automatically and I felt asleep……

stay tuned for next chapter….(so the readers for this chapter I have a questions for you…. what do you think priya should do for making friends now ?? or should she give up making friends)… what is your opinion ..do tell on the comment section…