finally I decided to finish all so called feelings and extra concern attitude towards her which I never wanted but after realising unilateral feelings will only hurt at the end.

Actually I'm thankful to her because deep inside she helped me to find the real me. Mistake was mine only by being extra expressive and just to remove my lonliness I fallen for her like anything, even crossed my limits. No doubt the last 2 years(approx) was full of learnings, new experiences, teachings but fine need to accept the things and just wait for the deserving one.

The hardest part is to stay with that person with changed feelings. Earlier I don't need any reason to talk with her but it feel like load to even call or text her without reason now. She is one of the beautiful soul ever met and at the same time naughty too..but I won't change myself or behave immaturely for so called lust or feelings.

That was great feeling with her but now there comes an end and need to put full stop.

REASON FOR KILLING MY FEELINGS

1. Deep inside I realised, need some person to accept me the way I'm and she is not ready to accept me.

2. Initially I thought there was no difference the way we shared our bond, it was just we have not given tag but later she clarified, in realtionship there is different feelings of being emotionally connected, commitement, concern and all. But here only I was doing all those things.

3. Too much expectations in terms of appreciations, geting the same love, concern etc

4. We both are not alike (I belong to old school and she is too modern I guess) and she is not ready to work upon it.

5. She takes me as a pure friend and I don't want to be bad example for friendship.

6. Deep inside I felt despite of giving my best still not able to make her fall, so its better to accept the things and move on.

7. We both are not on same pitch, she has different goals & dreams, although I even approach to be the part of them but she wants to achieve them all alone.

LEASONS I LEARNED DURING PAST 2 YEARS

1. Don't be too expressive, too extrovert beacuse at the end no matter how kind you are be ready for its circumstances.

2. Don't be so emotional to every things just know your limits.

3. Always be your own best friend and make the spritual relation your strength as its the only thing in this universe which will never going to leave you or hurt you.

4. Feelings can be in friendship too..its just I take her the other way.

5. Accept the person you are, don't try to change for anyone, yes I'm from old school, I don't like parties, clubs, showoff, unncessary short term realtions.

6. There will be time when you are at your weakest, just give it time, that too shall pass.

7. Need to wait for the real deserving love of my life, as no matter how much you do for anyone, this love feeling is internal.

8. Be strong and committed to your decisions, the way she was stuck with her decision since day 1 is appreciable.

9. Never share every feelings or thoughts just too show your concern or your skills.

10. Always keep things close to your heart as not everyone is seriouslly interested in your feelings.

HOW THINGS WOULD BE WITH HER IN FUTURE

1. I would always be with her but this time with changed feelings.

2. Will never express my feelings ever to her and this time will going to work by myself.

3. She has taken me as a friend so, from my side there would be no nuisance in this friendship.

4. Although I guess I won't be able to make happy memories or masti friends used to have but still will be part of her happiness and never ever gonna hurt her.

5. Never ever let my respect for her compromised just for the sake she don't accept me the way I want.

6. Be the real me, won't compromise with my ethics and fundamentals.

Thanks