And I've lost him, forever maybe. I shouldn't have done that, but I had no other choice. Listen to my story because I cannot handle this pain all alone. Something is broken from the inside, I can feel it, but I cannot be able to mend it. This is me, writing in tears and into broken pieces.

We met 7 years ago. He was senior to me in school, but then after 10th he dropped, and we both came in 11th Sci. We were in the same school in the same class, that's where we started getting introduced to each other. He was one of the studious and notorious, and I was the mixture of the studious and notorious. We didn't meet so often, we met during practicals or examinations. Because we were acquaintances, we didn't even have a normal conversation apart from studies.

It was something I can't deny. I was somewhat attracted to him, I couldn't resist his charm. And that charm slowly convinced me to find reasons to have a conversation with him. And I could surely say that wasn't one-sided because he never avoided having a chit-chat with me. Deep down we both knew we were just more than acquaintances to each other. May be more than friends. I usually called him KitKat because he only loved the chocolate KitKat :P

He had a friend, let's say “X”. I didn't know him, we met through KitKat. We three shared the same coaching classes, the only difference was they both are in the same batch different from mine. So we three were like friends, shared school projects, attended practical sessions together, and our roll numbers didn't have many gaps in between. So no matter what, we three stay together during any school activity.

I wasn't much connected to X, we just bonded through my “friend” and his best friend. I'd rather choose KitKat over X because of the attraction. You know right :P. Two years passed, and now we have our boards and JEE exams. Before 10 days of my boards, I lost my grandmother, and it was a major heartbreak. I was lost. That's where KitKat supported me a lot. He knew how I was feeling, so for cheering me up, we talked for about 2 hrs daily over the phone. A week before boards, can anyone even put their efforts for somebody apart from studies? You would definitely say no. But he did. And that was the time I found out that I discovered feelings for him. He made me fall for him, and without realizing it, I just did. 

After exams, I decided to confess my feelings directly to him, and I wasn't afraid of how he would react because I was so sure he was equally attracted to me as I was to him. But I wasn't expecting an unexpected major turn between us. His friend “X" had feelings for me, and what was more disappointed was that he already knew that. X talked to me about that, and I was totally shattered because I knew X was his best friend, and he could do anything for him despite knowing the fact that he could lose me. I talked to him, and it exactly happened the way I thought. He said, “I am in a dilemma, I don't know where I should go. There is my best friend on one side and then there is you. I cannot hurt either of you, so I decided to walk alone, and for you, I should say that you have to give him a chance”.

I am sorry, I have to stop in between. Since the story is so long and I cannot finish it in a single go. Hope you guys understand my emotions behind every word I wrote. Will meet you in Chapter 2. See ya !!

Also, tell me in the comment section that how would you react if you were in my place?