I am sorry for making you guys wait. If you still hadn't read the whole story, I suggest please go through the two previous blogs. Yes, it is my real story. Be a part of it.

We were both back on track. We are more than best friends but a little less than lovers. He loves me, but I am with somebody else, so I kept his feelings hanging. I can say I was a little biased to have him, I was afraid that if I told him the truth that he and I just cannot be together, he would dissolve this bond of friendship too. That's what I was scared of. I fell for him the day I met him. But they were the timings that made us fall apart. I buried feelings inside mine for him. He didn't. He had been hoping for years about us being together. 

If you're reading this, please understand my inner self. I've never met anybody like you. You are genuine, smart, caring, and you handled me beautifully, which I applaud you for. You were there for me and that's what made me put all my trust in you. I was able to open up to you knowing you won't judge me or spill to anyone. You gave me advice and support. You hold my hand when I need someone to keep me up. You believed in me. You believed that yes I was worth loving.

When I began falling for you, I was good at ignoring the feelings at first for the sake of our friendship. But, our friendship kept getting stronger by the day and so did my feelings. I knew that what I was feeling was forbidden. I knew that acting on those feelings was not an option. I was falling for my best friend- somebody I couldn't have in that romantic way. You already told me about how strongly you want us to be together. But if I'd do that, I hurt myself more than I hurt the third person between us. I had to think twice because of my current relationship. I loved him more than I loved you. And that's where I lost you somewhere. 

You made my birthday super special, and when I asked you about why you put so much effort into it, you said, you're the only special thing left in my life. I wanted it to make it special for me. My heart ached a little when you told me this. When we met, you held my hand tightly, said, “babe, I want this to be forever, I know you are with someone else, and I am not asking you to leave that person for me. All I want is to be your last forever. However, how long it takes." My heart ached a little more. Seeing you helpless, seeing myself helpless, I couldn't muster up the courage to say it to you in person. Your presence was the answer to my fear. And I shut my mouth there and wished together with you that yes, there'd be forever for us!! 

But, the time finally came – I had to be honest with you for your sanity. I told you, I cannot be in love with two people at the same time. I cannot raise your hopes high because I am so not sure about us. I always thought we could be best friends but looking at us right now, I am hurting you directly or indirectly. Indeed, I already knew it would not end well, but my heart shattered when you said, “You are ready to be heartbroken. We should part our ways and appreciate the time we had together till today. Because you just can't fake a message or meet or put a fake smile just for my sake. If this is gonna end then it will end from all directions. You're sorry but this is the price we have to pay.” 

From that day, till today, I am not okay. I pretend to feel, pretend to have fun, pretend to be happy, and pretend to smile, but deep inside, I am shattered. It feels like, a part of me has gone. I checked your Snapchat streaks repeatedly and stalked your Instagram account twice, thrice in a day. You look happy, Oh, sorry. Pretend to look happy. I miss you. You are a gem person. 

I read a line, And I make myself a bit satisfied after that. That is 

" Kuch Log Hamare Kabhi Nahi Hote,  Bass Waqt Unhe Kuch Pal Ke Liye Hamare Pass Le aata Hai!!

Some people are never with us, just time brings them to us for a few moments.

I realized a thing, There's a very thin line between being in love with someone and loving someone. Loving someone is about how they make you feel, being in love is about how you make them feel. 

I Loved you, but I was more worried about your feelings rather than mine. I had to let you go. Because I want you to move on. You deserved to be happy. 

And for me, I am tryin'. The chocolates you gave me, I will keep their wrappers forever. Every song that is related to you, will stay on my playlist always. Your gifts occupy a special place in my closet, as well as in my heart. All your things, make me a little weak. You know the moment when you can actually feel the pain in your chest from seeing or hearing something that breaks your heart. But in the end, it felt nice. 

Thank You, For saving me from myself. I love you, Always and Forever. And I let you go!