I always  fight with my mom. We both cannot get along well. May be because  I am like her. Not completely  but yes as like poles repel from each other such is our case. So as usual  one morning  I had a fight with my mom on some family  issue. In fit of anger I just lost it. I said many things to her. She listened to me quietly and at the end she said " you shouldn't  have said  so much" and she left to continue her daily chores. In regular  scenarios  this would  have  been  a very common  situation.  But today I felt bad...yes after 30 yrs I felt bad for th  first time in my life after fighting with my mom...I realized that I was rude to her and I shouldn't  have  reacted that way...Now you must be thinking  why it happened  after so many years. I will tell you...

So the fact is when I held my new born today after fighting with her I concentrated  on adoring  him to divert my mind.. I started playing with my kid and caressing  him with love...and suddenly  I realized how would I feel if my kid tomorrow  behaves with me like this?? Will I be able to tolerate his rude behavior??? Will I be able  to ever accept the fact that this little  creature  who I am loving  and caring  so much will hurt me one day like this?? How will I react to him them?? Will I be able to listen to him quietly like how my mom did today?? Or will I reprimand  him for talking  rudely  with me?? If I do so will he even listen to me?? I never listen to my mom…Then I wondered when I was this small being a first child even my mom must have  felt the same way I am feeling for my first child now, isn't it?? She would  have  also loved me and caressed  me the same way I do to my kid. Had she ever thought  that the same  child would  turn out to be "Me"??? Always shouting  at her, hating  her for most of the things…Will she be feeling  regretful for loving  me?? No..how can she??.. I can never feel regretful  for loving  my child…that is the motherly love which is unconditional. She always used to say whenever I responded her rudely that “ When you will become  a mother you will understand.” So right she is. Indeed only a Mother can understand  a Mother. And I suddenly  feel  so grateful to be a women and blessed to be a Mother…..

Cheers to all the Mothers in this world!!!

Happy  Reading!!

Regards,

Apurva