I used to cherish him sincerely yet he underestimated my love. He got pain in my life day in and day out. Am attempting to endure on the grounds that I succumbed to his stunts if by some stroke of good luck I had the option to foresee my life I could not have possibly permitted him close to my life cause all he are to me is simply torment. I'm neglecting to adore another person since I am apprehensive I may be harmed and broken as much as he did to me.

He is the first and only man I loved. It made me both nervous and limitlessly joyful. Love. It felt like everything. He felt like my whole world. But things get messy when the same feelings are not mutual. 

Was I just an experiment or something else for him? It hurts to think of the answer. Did he even love me at all? Or was I just being played? 

Nothing I said could change his decision. 

Love. It can pull risky pranks on the brain. It makes one see things that are not genuine and makes one oblivious in regards to the real world. Thus, as it was, I was crashing down. Directly down on the substance of the Earth from the skies of love. I could feel some fondness for Earth, at least she won't allow me to fall underneath her. She would hold me and guard me while she can. I was happy I had somebody to look up to even in the most over-the-top horrible time.

Yet, it was not her affection I really wanted. It was his love—the love which I really wished for and didn't get. 

I love him. I find it impossible to stop thinking of him. It is best for him to forget me but then I think, can I forget him? I have excess hours in my days. I cannot find anything to keep me busy. 

I simply love us being together. I still dream of him. I appear to inhale his name in each breath I have left.  

Anyway, what is love? Is it an inclination?   

I close my eyes and bury away all my sorrows. 

I generally hoped everything would turn out great for him since he was my first love. However, you generally made me significantly break into pieces. He showed me never to heartedly love somebody entirety. I know one day I will support myself and I won't ever require a man in my life. He was the aggravation of my heart, I adored him thinking he truly cherished me not realizing I was a choice to him. 

Dear, I want you to enjoy all that life has to offer throughout everyday life...