Hi guys. Decided to write this with heavy heart but yes here I am, sharing how it feels when you lose your bestest friendship ever.

So it's been a month since I have lost my bestfriend and haven't talked about her openly. It was 30 January, 2024. My friend called me and said my bestfriend Priyanka passed away last night. It was 29 of January, around 11PM she left this world because of health issues. I don't want to share specially about that moment. Today, it's 29 of February. A month has passes since I have not seen her, since we haven't laughed on lame jokes, since we haven't shared our heart out. I feel so empty. I cry everday. It's feels like I have lost a part of my heart. We were together from past 18 years. We have lived a big span of our lives calling each other bestfriends. The truth of life is your friendship can be permanent but friend can't. I know I will never meet her. I will always miss her every day, every moment but I will always call her my bestfriend and she'll still be the first person whom I inform or give life updates. I talk to her when I talk to God. I think of her like she's my morning sun and moon at my nights. It's been a month since I don't feel like doing anything. I don't feel like talking, eating, sharing or even laughing. I have lost my biggest cheerleader and no one can ever fill this empty void. I have never seen someone leaving me like this. I attended very first funeral of life and it was of my bestfriend. I feel my life has paused at a point that I've never imagined. It is so disheartening to see people with their bestfriends. I miss you my dearest human. 

I know she will never be with me like before but her presence will always keep me going. I have so much to say but no one to hear my endless talks. Priyanka, you have never judged me and never ever made me feel alone. Thank you for making me understand the real beauty of friendship. I will always love you for what you were. My bestest friend ever, I feel very sad and broken that our wishlist will never be completed. I wish you have stayed a bit longer. I will always miss our laughter and your brightest smile. :(