Hello guys, today ill talk about something very serious topic, which is very close to me to be more explicit I've seen someone go through this. Yes one of my close friend. Today I'll tell you her story in her words.

So it's goes like; 

I stutter😞, yes.

I'm pretty much sure that many of you must have had never come across this word. Let me describes it to you in simple terms. Stuttering is a speech impediment, difficult to speak commonly like any other guy. Those who stutter take huge or many pauses in between words. They find it very difficult to speak and the situation becomes terrible when someone makes fun of the boy or a girl who is withstanding this stuttering. This condition is very common among boys unlike the girls and is also named stammering. I don't remember when I started stammering but my mother told me I was in elementary school when I first started showing this condition. They thought of it as a normal shortcoming in speech. But it was not. So, the situation started getting awful as years passed on. I was made fun of in the class every time I wanted to say something. So I kept silent as I didn't want to make the situation more awful. I feared speaking in front of people and I preferred to be quiet in every gathering in my house. I started criticizing myself for all this I was going through. Let aside my friends and other people, my parents used to make fun of me and criticized me every single time I stammered. They try to scold me and humiliate me in every single way possible. I lost all my hopes and dreams. I made myself isolated from the mob. Every time I stammer I was subjected to humiliation, shame, and hate. I don't know why God made me like this, I don't know if I can ever be cured, or why people humiliate me every single time. But, all I know is  I have lost all my hopes and dreams. Now, I don't even want to pursue anything, or I don't even have any dreams to work on. Sometimes I wonder I only way to end all this hate and humiliation is to end my life. And then the time came of preparing for the so-called IIT. I used to study hard and do as much as I can but like always I failed🤣🤣🤣. Everyone around me attacked me in different ways. Some told me I was good for nothing and I think they were right. After all, I did nothing for my parents and always used them used their hard-earned money. I always demanded but never asked if they wanted something. And after all these years of humiliation now I can say “I'm THE WORLD'S MOST UNDESIRED PERSON EVER”😂😂. You all must be thinking about why am I using this laughing emoji every time😂, let me tell you something "I love the rain because they help me hide my tears". So, I use this laughing emoji to hide my pain and tears🤣🤣🤣. You know I've got the best mum&dad and of course a great friend as my brother❤, but I wish they could say the same for me as well. As I've made their lives a living hell😂. I know they deserve far better than me, and sometimes I wonder it would be better if I was never even born. Sometimes I wonder how their life would have been if I wasn't born in this family and the only answer I get every single time is “ PERFECT”😂. I just wanna tell my family if they will ever read this “ I love you, you gave me everything I wanted without even saying, I wish I could ever do something for you". But I'm sorry. I can't. I always tried my best but I think I was never meant for something good. And upon all that when I failed it IIT I started blaming my parents for it. What more I co#uld do to make their lives a living hell. All I have ever done to my parents is making them sad.

They never wanted me to stammer or to fail. But I always blamed them for this.

All I want from you guys is to respect your parents and love them. You should love them unconditionally because they did the same for you. Never make them sad or hurt them. They never wanted anything bad for you, always remember this line " their decision may be wrong, but their intention was never wrong".

And, in this long one-drop year, I've comprehended a lot of life lessons, but that is for another blog.

And I know it all sounds like a loser, but I'm no loser. I'll show the world the meaning of my name. And if I fail in this, which I know I won't but if unfortunately ( Ps: my favorite word) I fail I promise I'll try again, and I'll keep on trying until I'm satisfied. 

“You are your own choice” I don't exactly know who's quote is this but I love it. Probably because I know the meaning. 

So, that was my poor friend above.

Hope you'll help someone suffering with this stammering problem, it's not actually a problem just a small gift of god to them. 

So, now it's time to bid a goodbye to you all, see you in my next Blog, till then stay safe and healthy 😁😁😁.

Thanks.