So on 5th of September, at 3:40 am I suddenly woke up and realized that my heart is more than normal and I was in a state where I was unable to think anything I felt like something will happen to me. So I went to my mother and she took me to the hospital. Fortunately my ecg was normal and I was given medication for 3 days, after some days again I felt the same and I felt pain in my chest, back,neck and arm. I got my 2d echo done and it was normal too. The doctor said that I'm having anxiety problem. From that day literally I can't sleep properly, I have not smiled properly and also fear death many a times. 

I'm just a 20 year old girl and I really don't want to feel this way i want to live my life normally again and also I was taken to 2 therapy sessions till now. I am trying meditation and I just wish that I see myself normally again and I let go of the fears. I will come back stronger I know . I have so much to achieve and I wish that I get out of anxiety soon.

I am not able to focus on my studies and I am not interested in anything that I was interested in before. I cry I say this to myself that I'm strong and hopefully I will be fine soon physically as well as mentally. 

Those of you who are dealing with stress and anxiety I wish that you come out of it very soon. And God blesses you with everything that you want. Never lose hope ,things take time ,people heal with time ,everything will be fine soon. 

It is very difficult to live in the present moment . Mind is always filled with so many thoughts. So much is going on in mind. But the only hope is to come back even stronger . I know everything will be fine. I'm waiting for the day where I'll be really really happy. I hope I'm able to fight with the negative thoughts and only think positively. 

I'm following whatever my therapist has told me and meditating and believing that everything goes well. Thank you for reading my blog and if you have any suggestions on how can I overcome my fear please do let me know .