Hello everyone,

Thanks to all those people who have read my previous blogs. 

I'm dealing with anxiety and depression and I'm able to survive only because I want to live a life I've always dreamt of. You guys might be wondering why am I having depression or anxiety. So,I just want to say that something very heartbreaking has happened with me which I don't want to share . I face that everyday and I don't know how to react. For me , i really don't know how my 2020 went. Honestly, I just used to wake up ,get done with my stuff then I used to be on my phone every second of my life. I am a student of a professional course and I wanted to give my 200% I was very much focused till 2019 but then things got changed I lost my control over my mind and body. I got so weak and lost 10 kgs in 4 months without wanting to lose weight. Things are getting really tough for me but I won't give up ,I don't want to give up. I want a life where I'll be happy, I want everything that I deserve . Many people have said a lot of things about me but I won't stop because of them. Many a times I thought of giving up on my life,but no!! I won't. I want to live and let live. 

I used to cry in a dark room,I used to hit myself in order to hurt myself but I stopped doing all those things when I realized that I deserve the best life. I love myself ,I don't care about people's opinion, I know only a few people care about us , only a few people can see us happy ,not everyone is my friend ,not everyone deserves to be my friend. I love the way I am . I don't listen to people anymore, I'm not that innocent girl ,I'm not that foolish girl who used to think about others. I care for the people who are real and genuine . I love people who have achieved things on their own. I like people who understand me. I'm the way I'm and I'm not going to change it for anyone. I too crave for the real love, happiness but I don't trust people blindly. I have my own rules and responsibilities. One day,I'll be the version that I crave for today.