Right after the 10th standard boards, my cousin who was in collage back then told me that I will be missing my school days soon.

Just like any other teenager, I was arrogant about it too. I was all like “ Ya, well I'm not like you, I'm sure I'll never miss the school.” 

Then I chose science stream. I got myself into a half a bunch tuitions right away. Little did I know that it was my worst decision, and it was going to give me the hardest, most emotionless time of my life.

I moved out of my home, to a place nearer to the tuitions. I was all alone before I even knew. I mean I was now living with my uncle's family, but I'm not lucky enough to get caring relatives. All I did for the next two years was just drive from one class to another all day. Getting home all tiered and sleepy. Hoping to study but never did.

I did not know what I was doing, neither what I wanted next. But during all this chaos I realized that my life had changed but I was still just a school girl.  

I missed the old way of life. I would wake up early, get ready and just take a walk of 2 minutes to the bus stop. Here the bus would pick me up and off I went to a place, which now seems to be the one far away form the reality.

Chatting to friends between brakes. Taking music classes. Participating in the annual day fest. Having petty fights, and all such things, but most importantly, just thinking of the present. I never knew that there was a rat race out there, so cruel, that teenagers like me would be so indifferent about each other.

I look back now and I feel that the schooling years were the best for almost all of us. You had no idea of the real world problems. You did not know the bank balance of your dad. You did not know what amount of pain it takes to earn even a single penny. Neither the fact that you need to have a lot of patients to get done any kind of document work with the government offices.

 School was blissful because we knew less of the reality.

I miss being worry free, being chilled out. Not wondering what if I don't make it through the pandemic. I do look forward to life now. But I also miss what's gone. Heeling to live with it lately. Now I've made peace with the fact that things will keep changing as the day goes. 

All we can do about it is be thankful for the wonderful times. Be thankful for the bad times too because we did learn from it.

Once in a while, we can go down the memory lane and cherish the unforgettable moments and move on with life.

How do you miss your school times let me know in the comments section!!