Not a big fan of midnight as I feared darkness and I blame the horror movies and my cousins who love to pull pranks for that. August 1st 2020 was no special, I as usual slept with a heavy heart and a worried mind. Soon I woke up to the sounds of thunders ⛈ and flashes of lightning 🌩.  I'd lie if it didn't remind me of conjuring, I tried ignoring the thoughts and get back to my sleep but my body refused to and killing time with my phone wasn't an option as it was low on battery 😭 so as I left it to charge I heard the thunders getting Lowder so I peeked through my window.

The sight infront of me was soo unique and beautiful as the trees that were bright and comforting now looked dark and intimidating, the roads have become miniature streams due to rain. Something in me told me to watch the rain from the balcony and the usual me would never agree to this but the pandemic me was so tired of stuff that if a ghost 👻 did pop it'd end up listening to me ranting how worse the covid was. As I admired the chef in me was inspired to make myself something to fit the weather.

After all the slow motion movements and trying not to wake my parents I managed to make myself a cup of hot chocolate at 2am.

Satisfied with my work, I headed back to the balcony and settled down on my favorite chair with my bluetooth headset and my phone on which I had my melody Playlist playing.

The choco drink and the heavy rain were definitely a deadly combo. As I admired the rain I realized how the pandemic was stressing me, the Isolation, the news, the lockdowns and the annoying online classes all this but I still was having 3 meals per day with a happy and healthy family while many were going through worse. Sudden sense of thankfulness hit me I was thankful for all those social workers fighting and sacrificing for public wellness and my parents who are trying so hard to keep me safe and let me enjoy my luxuries amidst the worst. 

Soon the rain calmed down it was now cold and very soothing and at the last sip of my drink I wondered on how I had gotten brave enough to sit out in the dark and enjoy it and a beautiful quote struck me.

“You find comfort even in your deepest fears” 

 I tucked myself back into the bed as i smiled recollecting the content filled night where I enjoyed my own company and had gotten against my fear and soon fell back into the slumber I had woken up from.