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I am person who have faith in god, it is god as common and not specific to any religion. So, I was brought up in a good manner, so my parents has always taught me to pray to god for everyone's sake and don't be selfish. I used to do so, without thinking much. But, later I realised, how can we pray for the good of everyone. There are people, who might think bad for us, so, if they think or do bad for us and still if we expect them to be good, then it will end up myself not being good.

For example, there is a person who is tortuting me in work and somehow wants me to make me quit my job. How can I pray to god to keep that person happy, is suppose that person is happy, if he changes his mind and stops torturing me then am fine with that, but if that person is happy and still he wants to torture me, then I am at pity. Sometimes, we need to be selfish, so that I decided to pray for myself, but still being selfish hurts me.

Again I told to myself, there are some people who wants me to be happy and do good for me, should I pray for themselves along with me, that is not exactly selfish, but still a little bit selfish kind of. I thought, am not that bad, let me pray for all the people who do good. But, even though the people are doing good, still there is a day when everyone has to die, so we cannot do that. 

I decided to pray simply, not thinking about anything. we are happy when our prayers are answered, but we get angry when our prayers are not answered, we should not be angry that case, we should still keep praying as god has decided something better for us. 

Hope, you guys felt that this post was a bit crazy, thanks for reading…..