Things got messier each day. I was looking for a reason to live. The cobwebs of life caught me so badly and i started to hate myself for no reason. I was clueless about what was happening in my life. I didnt bother to think about how i could change my life. But, i continously pondered about the negative side of it- "the messier" part.The routine continued.. Most of the days i stayed up till the morning and struggled to get some sleep. My appetite was lost and i always felt dehydrated. I didnt think anything about myself or anybody else. My mind was preoccupied with all the bad things that have happened in my life. I could'nt control my mind. It was wandering to all dark places from where i have escaped. I was sobbing all day and night and nothing could heal my pain. My heart was feeling heavier each day.

 One fine day, when i sitting in my room and staring blankly at the wall, a flash of memory passed my mind. It showed my childhood and i was smiling pointing a beautiful blue butterfly. It stuck me real hard. Then, i started realising that there are so many things arounds us where we can find happiness. Some things can put a wide smile on your face. That morning i looked at my mirror reflection and i smiled at myself. This moment changed everthing in my life. I always tried to look at things differently. 

My first step to bring about change in my life began with planting tiny money plant saplings in the water-filled bottles. It may sound crazy, but yes i did it because i am a plant lover. I love watching the plants grow and whenever i see a baby leaf it make me happy. I placed it near my window so that the rays of the sun made the bottles show the roots at the bottom. And there was a different shade of colors, when the sunlight entered these bottles. I took care of those plants as my babies. I watched the water droplets on the leaf glimmer when the sun rays hits it. So each morning, my routine began by checking on the plants.This helped me to succeed and enjoy things that i do for the rest of the day.

First of all, understand the things that makes you happy and try to bring it in your life. You will definitely feel the difference.