It is usually said that love is something that can make you smile , make you cry, make you feel special, make you feel unwanted, make you to change yourself , make you to change the world, make you regret bringing any change in you. LOVE!!! Something for which you can do anything. From spending your life with someone even if you were not ready once to waiting for that someone to come, without even knowing whether they will come back or not, even though you wanted to settle as soon as possible.

I fall in both the categories. I was not ready to be with someone any soon but once you fall for someone and you being not ready is a factor which can be a reason for your separation. You get ready for another step as well. Same happened with me. I got agreed to go to another step i.e. marriage because I was soo in love with that person that I knew I can spend my entire life with him.

I also did not realise when I became the one from the second category, the one where you wait for your loved one to come back even if you have no idea that they will come back or not. I was ready to wait. I AM ready to wait. But for how long ? At what price ? Many times the moment comes, when you are just forced to think about how long you can wait. When that wait comes with a price of my self respect and my respect among my loved ones, is that wait even worth it ? For the person who did not care about me before putting me in this situation. Is my wait worth of my self respect for the person who knew what my self respect mean to me ?

I have heard people say 

wo ishq hi kya jisme tumhane apne swaabhimaan ko pare na kia ho.

But if you are not even sure whether you will get that love back or not, should I not focus on something I have already with me, which is going to stay with me, which defines me?

I could think of keeping self respect aside if i knew that eventually i will get my love back. But is it worth it keeping my self respect for auction to get something which i don't even know will be mine? What is more worthy to keep - my self respect or the wait for my love ?

So many question to ask!!! No one to answer !!!!