I can't even explain how good it feels to look across the room and see you standing there. Knowing that you didn't have to come and didn't want to come and yet you came anyway. It's ways been this way with you, no matter what we go through, no matter how bad we slept at night, you always turn up for me. I know you don't like loud parties, or people getting senseless drunk, I know you hate getting up on the dance floor and that you would rather be at home curled up with a good book and a hot cup of coffee and yet I can't help but smile.

And I know I don't make it easy for you, I know how bad it gets sometimes, how worse I make it sometimes, and yet you are like the rock that I lean on when my heart needs to catch a breath. I know I'm a lot to handle, I'm loud and crazy and weird and I don't think before I speak, I have no filter and sometimes I know that I'm making it just that much harder, but you are the anchor to my ship that would otherwise be lost at sea. There I go with the metaphors again.

And I can't even elaborate how amazing it feels to look around and see you standing, annoyed but there, because it's one more day that I can tell myself.. You stayed. But I need to tell you that I'm working on it, for you. That I'm learning, I'm growing, I'm changing because i want to be better for you. And because I hate that it's not as easy for you as it is for me. I hate that you make it's so easy to like you, to care for you, to hug you, to want you. I hate it because I want to be that person for you like you are for me. I hate it because of how much I love you l. How easy you make it for me to love you.

And I can't even explain how marvelous it feels to look across the room and found you standing there, annoyed but there, because it is one more day that I can tell myself.. you stayed.

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