Dear old friend, I let you go because…

Instead of making me happy, you started making me sad. I had to let you go because i couldn't do it anymore, being the clown of your jokes and pretend that it doesn't hurt me when you make fun of my insecurities like that. There's always a limit….

There were times when i wanted to yell at you for hurting me but mostly, i wanted you to hug me and say that you were sorry. But, you refused to acknowledge my heart broken smiles and sad eyes. I remember when i tried to talk to you, you accused me of making everything about myself. and i couldn't help but wonder, "were you even my friend?"

Our conversations went from talking about everything and anything to me sending you messages and you replying after days, so i stopped. I would remember the good old days and cry myself to sleep looking at your stories of the fun weekend with your new friends.

You made me feel like a nobody. I would stay up late at nights thinking where i went wrong. Did i not listen to you when you wanted to talk or did i not offer you my shoulder to cry on? What did i do to deserve such coldness from you? But eventually, i realised that it was nothing that I did to make us drift apart, it was you who made a decision just like that and i couldn't do anything about it.

Friends are those who make you laugh on your bad days and add colours to your dull life. They give you the warmest hugs and make your heart swell with love and pride. It would be wrong of me if i don't acknowledge the fact that you held me when i cried over marks and boys and told me that i was no less than a queen. But somehow all of that changed, you went from being my favorite person to an old friend that i had to let go and may be, it was for the good because you once told me that if something makes me miserable, i should let that go.

So, now I am acknowledging your words and letting you go. Finally this time… There is no scope for any sorry and persuasion. You're just an acquaintance for me now.

Best wishes from my side!