It's hard to tell someone that you love them, but it's the hardest thing to have them tell you that they actually do not.

And it is so difficult to understand why, after everything that you two did together, after you allowed them to see every part of you, after you had let all your walls down even the ones you swore you wouldn't let anyone behind. After you allowed them into the most forbidden corners of your life, they decide that they don't actually love you. And worst of all, there are parts of them that they decided you weren't yet worthy of knowing.

And you wonder how you missed it. How you didn't see it behind all the fun you two were having that their hearts and their minds were still confused, that to them you were just an escape, that no matter how much they tried you just weren't what they wanted in the end, that you two were meant to be together, but it wasn't going to be forever.

And it hurts. It hurts like a knife through your chest, because you were not someone who let people in easily, you were not someone who allowed your heart to love, you were not someone who wanted to get serious, but they pushed and you fell, and for a moment you thought you were flying, but then the ground hit you and you just don't know what to do.

And it sucks, it suck so much because now you hate how you feel, you hate how they made you feel, how they cared to ask about your well being, how they constantly wanted to be a part of your life, how they wanted to know every little detail about you, how they wanted to meet your family, and slowly you let them, you let them because you thought it meant something for them. But in the end it didn't and yes it is horrible, and you just want to shut everyone and everything out.

But in this moment I want you to know, that it wasn't a mistake to have allowed yourself to love. It wasn't a mistake to have let someone in. Yes you got hurt, and yes the pain just doesn't seem to have an end, but that's what love is.

And maybe not this time, but the next time around, it will be worth it. I promise.