Well, it doesn't mean that you're being selfish but it indicates self love. 

Sometimes, when you stop putting efforts, a relationship or friendship just ends. you realise, it was just you, alone, trying to make it work.

To have someone who makes you feel safe is a blessing. knowing that there is someone who will always be there for you, no matter what, helps you sleep a little better at night.

But more than often, you feel that you are that person for a lot of people but you have nobody who you can call your forever, nobody who notices the sadness in your eyes when you are smiling wide or the silence in your laughter.

You have lost counts of friendships and relationships that never met their destination because you stopped making efforts. you would always be the one to ask them if they reached home safely or how their day was or how their interview went or if they wanted to go out to their favorite ice cream parlour and never them.

It felt like you were the only one trying to make that relationship or friendship work. they just didn't..care.

When you were younger, you could not understand how people forget birthdays of their favorites or never be on time for their celebration but as you grew up, you lived through all of it. disappointments after disappointments, feeding yourself excuses on their behalf when they wouldn't even offer you an explanation.

You put yourself down and swallowed your pride to keep your relationships and friendships alive.

But you cannot make a relationship work if it isn't two way. you cannot always be the one who gives and gives. you cannot always be the one to love and never feel loved by them. Basically, it's not a one way thing. Here also, give and take counts.

Because if they care about you and the bond that you both share, they'll never make you feel worthless and take advantage of your love for them. Instead, they treat you as a important element of their lives.

So you realised that once you stopped putting efforts in making your relationships and friendships work, they just faded away. And once it start fading, there is no going back.

And even though it hurts so much, you know that you are better than that. Right?

What's your thoughts? Do let me know in the comments. Have a nice day!