Hey everyone! This is your good friend. I'm going to share something that still makes me move to tears, something which still makes me proud, something that society ( I won't blame the word ‘society’ here because it's a group of so called “friends” but I don't want to call them friends cuz I've never accepted them as “friends”, “but still society bhi kam nahi hai”) never accepted me as who I am and my dreams.
So this story starts when I was transferred to Vizag (Vishakapatnam) I was then in 5th class. The life was going smooth and good, until I met 6 so my so called “friends”.(I don't even consider them as my enemies cuz enemies are a lot better than these 6 people) These people used to judge everyone, literally everyone and I was someone who is really sensitive. Their behavior was so bad, you'll think how can one be so insensitive to someone. I love dance, dance has been my favorite than studies. Everyone in the school appreciates me for this.
But one fine day, ( I was in class 8th) we were all ready for Independence Day celebration at our school, I was well dressed totally prepared for my team's performance. Our team was practicing backstage. One of the people from those so called friends, shouted at me saying “Ayeeee bar dancer” in front of everyone including parents, teachers etc. I couldn't stop crying I was crying loud, they made me embarrass in front of everyone. I was demotivated. (The same person who called me bar dancer, came to my home for a book, she stole a Lakme foundation I had brought for my dance program and never returned, why does people don't feel guilty by stoling something?)
I am brown I know it, I appreciate my color but those people used to judge me a lot called me “Kaali Billi”. I don't know why on earth they target me all the time. There wasn't a single day were they didn't tease me. Every time I see their faces I get demotivated. I had big lips, but then even my juniors used to call me “mote honth”. Why? I still remember going to every houses and complain about their child.
There was an incident where I one of classmates (a boy) called to me “mote honth” in the class, after the school I went to this house complained to his parents they said “ I will make sure he won't say that again” I was quiet happy returned to my house after dance classes. But the very next day he started saying that again, I begged him not to say he didn't listen. After the school I went to his house and complained, his parents said, "Ab toh tum dikhti aise ho toh mera beta kya kar sakta hai, mote honth bulayega na". I lost all my hope, I faced depression at a very small age.
“These people had left a very big scar on my life that would be never rubbed off” People in the society make you believe that if you're not fair you're ugly. I'm happy that I never doubted myself instead I stood up and fought for myself. God is watching everything, he'll definitely punish them one day, not just them everyone who hurt you in anyways.
Be happy for yourself! No matter what. (One of the member from that 6 people came to me to say sorry when she was transferred to Kochi, haha guess what happened next 😂)
Stay safe everyone, the pandemic is not yet over
Love
Leyasha
