I couldn’t stop crying and was on the floor sobbing and hugging the cold granite of my balcony…nobody to tap my back ,nobody to wake me up and console me though the room was full of people just ignoring my existence.In that moment I was desperate to make my love of my life just speak to me because there was no mistake from my side and was convincing him throughout just to say that it wasn’t my plan of whatever happened.The same morning we all were hung over from the previous day had a good time actually a great time and of course it was my first my time of going on a double date as usually I was excited so when the day came we got dolled up and anticipating the best time we were all tipsy and I was just high in my own world and my friend suggested that we would go to the beach and I had no idea about it as I was sitting in the front seat of the car.so the next moment I realised I was in the beach we enjoyed the serene beauty and I started kissing my love just under the stars and it was a beautiful moment and unforgettable then was the worst thing that happened the police came to us and a big drama took place and of course they looted money from us then was the dead silence in the car and of course the two guys were really angry and i didnt think it was fair for my guy to be angry on me as it wasn’t my mistake.as we came home he just ignored me and starting cursing me ,I was devastated and tried to explain that it wasn’t  my fault he tried to push me away which was unacceptable.I tried to hug him and console him he just pushed me to the ground and that’s where I got triggered ,sad and questioned my self worth.He kept on bombarding me with harsh words and I was more pathetic by the minute.When I started to feel that my epiglottis swell and I wasn’t able to breath that’s when I had this strong realisation of self worth.You fall before everybody else,you are important to you,you are worthy of you and nobody has the right to harm your aura and steal away the happiness from you.That very moment I gathered myself got up cleared my tears off and just walked straight into the room and slept.That’s what you do you must be stoic and cold hearted when people try to hurt you.Finally you are how you take care of yourself.This is my advice to you guys,don’t give away yourself to others so much that you end up searching for yourself.