This chapter of my life was sudden, tragic and it hit me out of nowhere. I didn't manifested it neither did I thought in million years that I would be facing that. But that was my immaturity. Trust is important to everybody and I have special place for trust and honesty even before love in a relationship. But he shattered my trust into pieces and acted what else did I expected. 

Our relationship wasn't conventional one but a little out of societies norms but we did manage to be together. I knew we had no future, I told myself over and over to remind myself to not fall in love with the impossible but here I am. Anyways0 so a while ago I found out he cheated on me not only physically but emotionally, he fell in love with someone else. I was devasted but I couldn't tell it to his face how much it hurts because he was at verge of something, the person he loved left him, I didn't wanted to push him further into darkness he might had never recovered from. 

Devastation that I felt, that constricted pain in my chest that was making it difficult to breath I couldn't tell him because I didn't wanted to hurt him more than he already was. He was as devasted as I was but our reasons were different. He was crying over someone else and I was broken over him. His betrayal messed me up physically and emotionally and even though he was the cause I didn't have the courage to say that to him be honest with him. Reason behind that was I thought if I said something that is only going to push him away and after everything I still wanted him how messed up is that. But that's the way it was, that is how much he mattered to me and I don't know how much I mattered to him, he never told me. 

I never said anything to him about the dishonesty and betrayal, the pain he caused me I don't know why I didn't have the courage to confront him while he had the audacity te betray me. 

Like I said our relationship wasn't convention but he owed me this much of decency that when he was not in love with me he should have told me. I know that he lost the person he claimed to love but I lost somone that I loved too and there was nobody who cared.

I think we all owe this to the person we don't love or don't love anymore if they are in your life be honest even if you that is gonna hurt them even if you think they will hate you for rest of your life honest l. Respect that person enough to tell them the truth even though they like it or not.

"Don't become the reason for someone's sorrow if you can't become the reason of their happiness."