It has been time I have started doing what title speaks of. Without having to feeling guilty but creating “that” boundary nobody taught me. I am a supersensitive person. Whatever passes by gets on my nerves and it is all downward spiral from that point onwards. This blog will give you the glimpse of me learning to honor and respect my individuality. Hope you find similar pieces to connect with me.
Ever since I was a kid, everything made me feel overwhelmed, emotionally. I do not remember where I did not cry in my bathroom because situations and people got best of me. By saying this I do not blame anybody as I have never been taught how to stand up for the Self that has walked with me, every moment of my life. Over the time I became a people pleaser, while this is not something you have not heard of from a person but it does get you bad, real bad. Ask any people pleaser (if they are aware that they are) how they feel about the urge of constantly putting others and their problems first and foremost than their own well-being. After a while, it gets you in the head, right? No, not only in the head perhaps, but also in your heart as well. Your heart feels pressured to be there for others but not for yourself when needed. While heart teaches us that we are important, because when there is love, empathy, energy to be there for the Self, we are there for others wholeheartedly as well.
My heart and mind decided that this is enough. It is time to be there for myself, love myself, show the inner child that I do not have to be scared all the time from this overwhelming feeling of being there for others. Putting boundaries made me feel guilty, and I thought it is wrong as I do not want to hurt others but I do not want to hurt myself either. Regret and selfishness are foremost emotions I felt while creating boundaries with people, with myself. But over the time I noticed a change as well. Rather positive improvement in perception. You may feel guilty and selfish in the beginning but it passes so quickly because your heart is there for you, constantly cheering you up “you did it, you did it, we are moving in the right direction!”
Thus, it has been months with the awareness of putting boundaries where it is necessary not only for myself but for others as well, I have learned to let go, to allow myself feel what I feel instead of denying the existence of my own emotions. I have been always proud of my emotional intelligence but it is only recent I have come to realize that simply understanding others' emotions is not a sign of emotional intelligence. You have to understand your emotions equally.
Self-care is necessary, my friends. How you decide to take care of yourself is purely your personal choice. I honored my individuality by breaking this pattern, one day at a time, learned to be there for myself, with uninterrupted faith in Universe. As I am still on this journey. For life is a journey. Because when you are standing up for yourself you will be amazed how people notice “you” in you. They really see you for who you are, and you encourage them as well. While we learn, we teach others as well. Never forget this.
Thank you for reading this blog. Lots of love and light to you.
