So, here I was confused about my future waiting for the results to come.

I was continuously trying to get to a point that whether i should go for poly or science. I even met some students who were in the same situation as mine. I knew that both the courses had their pros and cons but foe me they had more cons than pros.

While in this thinking period I realized that I was never into studies. I didn't wanted to study just for the heck of it, I wanted to learn new things, try new things. I didn't wanted to just sit in a closed room and learn formula's. Basically I knew that I was not a good learner in relevance with academics and marks. I was into arts. I loved everything which had a creative touch to it. Even in school I was more into extracurricular than in academics. But alas , no one could understand that. All everyone wanted was good marks and being a #good_employee. No one dared to think out of the box. Even I was bound with the clutches of family pressure and peer pressure. It is rightly said that most dreams are killed because of "What people will think". In that period even I was a people pleaser. I never dared to take my own stand and tell my father that i want to become an artist.

I searched about polytechnic and got to know that after taking admission in that course it was almost impossible to turn back and there will be only option ahead i.e. ENGINEERING. So just to buy myself some more time to convince my family to let me become who I wanted to be, I decided to take science as my course in junior college. This was just 5 days before the display of first allotment list. I told my father about my decision and that was the day when the hell broke loose. I never thought that such small decision would upset my whole family of around 20 people. That day I got to know that they were all expecting me to get admission into diploma. I told them that I am not sure about engineering right now so let me just attend junior college and till then I'll decide what degree course i would like to persue and if I got serious about engineering then I could easily get admission by passing the CET exam. After listening to my part of story the situation at my home worsened. Most of the elders of my family including my father and my elder cousin brother were hell bent that i must go for diploma course. But I made them understand my situation so they all complied with my decision.

The first list got out, and i was sure that i will getting a reputed college in my town. I went to a college near my house which was also one of the most reputed and talked about college in the city. (PS:- This college is also famous for its beautiful girls). I was hoping that I should get this college because i had good 78% in my 10th. Also this college full filled each and every criteria I had in my mind for the college.

As I entered the main gate of this college for the first time in my life, it was a whole new world for me. Everything about this college was cool and happening, It has huge campus and lawns also, well not lawns actually but a sitting area where some guys were hanging out. I was just mesmerized by the whole environment of this college. I just wanted to a part of this. I went in the main building and all I could see was students, students everywhere, pushing, rampaging each other to see the admission list. The whole corridoor was filled with uncountable number of heads. Every wall had a black board and these boards had lists sticked on to them. I started searching my name from the beginning. Even after 30 minutes of searching through numerous lists I could not find my name. After all this hullabaloo, finally I got my name. (I still remember it was in list no 741.) My heart beats were raised to maximum and I was  eager to see the alloted college. As I read the name of the college, I could not believe it as I even I had not expected it to be like this. I was blank as I feeling like being a part of a nightmare. All the expectations I had, vanished within moments. The college I was alloted was not even on my consideration list. For admissions this college would be the last option I would have been a part of. My city has 7-8 science colleges and the college I was alloted was among the most low reputed college. I had heard stories about this college that all the tapori dudes were its students in the past or the students currently studying there will become a tapori in future. I didn't wanted to take the admission in this college. I still remember that we had to fill 50 options for the colleges we want and I had filled 49 options and left on check box empty buthad not filled in this college's number, but while submitting the form, as asked by the supervisor and on my father's insistence i filled the last box with this college. I didn't wanted to but I had to.

I was feeling devastated.

I went home and told everyone what had happened and as expected, nobody was happy as the unexpected had happened. I was planning to fill in the admission form again for the second time but someone had explained me something that made me change my mind.

The person was my uncle and he told me that whatever the situation is around you it depends on you whether you want to get affected by it or just ignore it and move on for your good. He also told me that most of my family had studied in the same college so I should consider this as a legacy type of thing. after listening to him my morale grew and I thought that rather than going to the colleges at long distances from my house mai ye nazdik wale college me hi chala jata hoon, time ka time bhi bachega and jyada college jaane ki bhi zaroorat nahi.

So finally and halfheartedly I decided to take admission in this college.

The good part about this whole thing was that while carrying out the admission process I met my friends from my old school with whom I had no contact since I left my first school in fifth standard, and all of them were going to be my classmates. I was more than happy that atleast i will be having some good company in this college. We all talked and discussed our plans for the next day as we will be attending lectures from then on.

Next morning I woke up early to get ready for my #new_college, my #new_beginning. The college was going to start at 7:30, so I left my home at 7 and walked to the college as it was near to my house. The distance from my home to the college was not too much but even in this short distance which would get completed in 5 minutes, I had thousands of things going in my mind. One of things I remember was that 'Whatever happens to you, you need to be OPTIMISTIC'..
So here I was waiting for my new college or I can say my new beginning to begin...