Hii guys how are you all guys please take care of your health and hydrate yourself as much as you can in this year's very very hot summer wherever you are.

I am feeling somewhat weird and i really don't know what is happening and i need to know what is this if you can help and tell me that what is going on so I will be grateful of you.

Nowadays there are so many mess happen in my mind also there are many question which are not answerable by me or should I say i don't have any answer because of my unemployment. I don't know what can I do ? what is my future ? Am i worth of doing anything ? Am i useless ?

I feel so alone and lost that i sometimes feel that am i burden on my parents. Why god do this to me why god doesn't give those people who deserve and do hard work for getting work or anything which they want. I know there is saying that ‘ In god’s house it can be delay but not that there is no decision '. But my question is what I can do with this late decision if i don't need that in future. Or my all things get waste or destroy because of this delay. 

I was very jolly and happy person and immediately give answer to anyone. I love to be happy and make others happy. In past whenever I want to say something which can hurt someone so i told those in such a way that they didn't get hurt and easily understand me. But now i kind have no answer when someone say anything to me it is just that i can't do now. I just smile or let go all the things. And i am not that kind of person i am the person who feel light after giving every weird and baseless things answer.

And also now i don't want to go anywhere and meet people and i just fed up  by listening this question ‘what are you doing now’. It just literally blast my mind and make me feel awkward and upset. 

It is just not me but my parents also have to face all this just because of me and this breaks my heart into pieces. But i feel good after writing this in candle monk and share with all of you.