I've never thought of this kind of life. A life without meaning but with dreadful silence. I'm a girl whose future life appears to be a great chasm between hope and despair. People around me are running everywhere for oxygen. Nothing gives me the earlier charm which made me smile. The terrible inconsistency hovers over my head grabs my happiness like a demon.

My only companion is the rectangular screen which keeps me alive with the touch of the world outside my door. I can speak, seek and interact with other people through texts everyday. The fact is, many of my words are being manipulated since my voice is unheard and my gestures are unseen. I really had a great plan to fly above my insecurities. But the baffled wings of mine have no courage to flap themselves again.

I see a large group of youth who refuse to follow security measures and rules. They have a firm belief in their body. They trust that their organs are new and perfect. No new cases of death affects them since the thought keep them going..."after all we are young". Though I belong to their group by means of age my heart goes with the rest who are suffering due to ill health. I ponder over this idea every single moment. My mind is in conflict between these two selves of mine. Am I the person whose body is young and whose mind is old? Or is it my compassionate self which drives me towards the sick? Whatever happens in my brain is destroying my inner peace. Pursuit of my hobbies does not grant any satisfaction nowadays. This is the reason for which I get addicted to my silly smartphone screen. I'm not depressed, but I'm confused about the present plight of world.

Wishing to get rid of all these troubles, I choose to be with my vibrant screen by understanding the necessity of being confined. I choose to tie up my wings waiting for a safe and clear sky. Not because I am a coward, but because my desire for the previous life is more genuine than my current aspirations.

Even amidst these self taught lessons of life, I look around and see how pathetically the earth got changed in the last few months! Is this the time when humanity accepts the sole aim of life is survival?

I truly don't wish to end up my thoughts without optimistic conclusion. Nothing can elevate us from this filthy ditch of thoughts other than a vision. That vision shall be the one which helps me to flap my wings of dream once more. To see a brighter sky, to seek the smoother life and to feel the ecstacy of living.