Walking alone everyday
had me thinking
If I got stuck in motion
entrapping my yearnings,
letting time travel…
Then my hand starts twitching,
Seeing the clock to startle
an offbeat rhythm,
while holding my grief,
my sorrows
till tomorrow.
Thus expelling my demons;
Cleansing my higher spirits,
Remembering ouma,
and her green chilies knitted with lemons!
Her beliefs, my denial…
If your mind is hollowed
Reminiscing those fallen angels
living in your house!
A scar so shallow
That no one can save you from yourself
Neither would you,
An eminence of secret whereabouts!
Though I savoured my endmost seclusion
Until there was no time to count on
Just so I could know,
The child in me while chasing those spring blooms
has touched innumerable autumn leaves,
Unfamiliar yet destructive
evolving stronger
deeper into the ocean of darkness
glowing like bioluminescent creatures
Beautifying their evil self,
gravitating light,
hypnotised to drown a life
To taste what the fear of death is like!
An intolerable pain
Conspired to trap a mind
Never letting it shine.
Bewildering truths, so believing safe lies…
Mirrors scathing reflections;
Bleeding mind, hideous blemishes on alluring faces
Inscrutable eyes begging everywhere.
Spinning them in circles
thus leaving them nowhere…
So what would it be like
to stop in time
Until the eruptions in my mind
Engulfing inflamed chaos in a mould
to pause them for a while!
An eerie glow of frozen and unprecedented grey woods of my soul,
Sprinkled sinisterness into the ether of erroneous and repellent sole,
Moving among infinite fermions…
Conversations of mind-numbing dinoflagellates
glowing fireflies everywhere,
devoted to boundless deliverance;
Quietuses, a fear of evanescence!
An imagination so fierce,
suffocating truths, hindered passage of my tears.
A life led in ignorance,
The day has finally arrived!
Time couldn't bound me
But my grace,
An irrelevant fear of nothing but life
Has drown me to death!
While lying still,
My dreams held high
I could see someone staring
Beneath my skin
Flickering daydreams
And familiar sighs.
I could see,
glowing rage in her eyes…
A revenge she owned
Of bloodsheds and pain
That I thought would go away one day!
But kept on penetrating,
A galaxy of frozen orbs sustaining no life.
Couldn't she fathom, I professed to stay?
Not one word would she avow
Alife!
Entwined in each other's hearts,
Selfsame pulsating;
She was fearless…
To rip through my heaviness
Fettered cage,
gasping a sense of foreboding;
'cause I was floating,
A colossal of stellar hollowness!
Effaced memories,
Adored confidant,
Shoved my grave
Endured flash of remembrance
All my sins,
In the eyes of my beholder…
She wrecked my soul,
Wielding her dyrnwyn
Into the withered coldness;
An abated nuisance,
Began to ease
Oh, so deep within the Ocean of Mercy!
A/N :
It took me almost two months to finish it. This is a really special poetry, close to my heart.
Thank you!
