(P.s : Read my last blog to understand more/ this is the continuation of my last blog)
“LIFE HAS TO MOVE ON”
I'm someone who failed to achieve my dream. Who broke my parents hope, trust, promises. Failure isn't permanent but failing for the first time hits you different right!! Yes I failed to get into Medical college as I have scored mark less than the cutoff mark. Life doesn't ends there. Nah! Making life changing decisions is always difficult right?
But I planned to work hard for one more year, hoping that I'll achieve my dream. Yea! I went to an Institute and spend a year only on getting NEET coaching.
I tried hard and hard. I spend my days and nights for preparing the exams. I practiced more and more. I made myself into a bookworm so that at least I can achieve my dream this time. Coz failure taught me not to fail again and once you fail you will know that how it feels. So I did my best to achieve my goal.
But again the results broke me, I failed. Failed in the sense I've passed but no enough marks to get into government medical college. As a middle classer we shouldn't dream more right!! so I buried my idea of getting into private medical colleges coz it costs more than 50 lakhs. But still deep inside I thought that I should have born in a rich family. Coz some of my rich friends who scored less marks than me got into private medical colleges. That's how money works.
So again I broke my promises, parents hope, family's trust and I broke myself too.
First time when I failed , I thought “ok! it's fine to fail coz failure is the stepping stone to success”. But what will I do now? I failed again. Whom should I blame now? I worked hard for a year with number of sleepless nights and hopes. I put my full effort in order to achieve my dream. Sometimes even I dreamt myself as a doctor. It hurts me more. Literally I was dying inside.
Is that my fault? Or my fate? Even though I worked hard , I couldn't achieve this.
What will you call this “MY FATE or MY FAULT"?
How do you feel? Kindly drop your views in comments.
